July 30, 2018

Being A Stay-At-Home Mom Is An Amazing Gift

being a stay-at-home mom is an amazing gift

There are many types of moms.  For starters, there’s the mom who has to stay at home because they have no other options.  This mom stays at home because she can’t make enough money to cover day care costs by working.  So she has to stay at home.

The second is the working mom because she has too.  Maybe she is the single mom, or her husband doesn’t make enough, or her husband can’t work.  Either way, every day she has to go to work no matter what she wants.

These moms have it rough.  It is because the choice has been made for them.  They don’t get to pick.  There are two other types of moms though.  The lucky ones, I think.  They had control over their choice and either chose:

  1.  To stay at home
  2.  To go to work. Either full time or part time.

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July 26, 2018

This Is My Life As A Stay-At-Home Mother

my life as a stay-at-home

You know those moms that you see in the grocery store, at “Mommy and Me” classes, or at story time at the local library?

The ones with two or three kids who are well behaved. The mom that has the super cute outfit on that she claims she just threw together from Target or Kohl’s.  She always has the long hair that has those perfect styled waves and highlights.

Of course, she has the accessories, like a chunky necklace, cute earrings, and bangled bracelets. She never looks tired or a mess. She is skinny even though her baby is six months old and you know she isn’t eating last night’s left over mac and cheese for breakfast.

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July 25, 2018

This Is What The Beginning Of Motherhood Really Looks Like

what the beginning of motherhood really looks like

You never know what will cause it.  Sometimes it is a voice, a word, a story, a season. Sometimes it is obvious that it is coming and you can prepare yourself, gird yourself.  But then you have days like today, where you sink into the darkness, it surrounds you, engulfs you, sucks the breath right out of you, leaving you gasping.  You didn’t see it coming, it snuck up on you.  Now you’re left, standing in a crowded room, driving down a busy highway, alone.  The voices drift away, the highway roar dulls but you continue to move, smiling, driving, walking, and existing.  Like nothing happened – yet everything changed.  .

For me, most recently it was stockings.  I was driving down the road and I started thinking about Christmas stockings and just like that I was blinded by pain, by memories, by coldness.  See the truth is some memories follow you.  Sometimes I forget that they are there.  Sometimes I think for a brief moment that it didn’t happen, that it isn’t my story, that it isn’t part of me.  Truth is, I would give it all up in a second not to feel this way, to not live with this story.  I wish with everything in me that I could go back, make a different decision and keep my innocence.Continue reading

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